I know I haven't blogged I a while, but I had to get this off my chest. I gotta move to LA or NYC. Preferably L* by 95% I defly will. I mean there's just so much stuff pointing to LA, and tonight was the straw that broke the camels back. Honestly this is my blog so FUCK IT I'm moving to LA as soon as I graduate this is something I have to do and this si something I am so passionate about!

Thank You in
advance
John Freudig

Moodring: Twista ft. Faith Evans- Hope

Lord please give me some HOPE!

Moodring DMX- Lord Give Me A Sign

Thoughts on Feb 9th

WHY?
I know I gon' get threw it cus God is puttin me threw it
My reality is your worst nightmare
Why?
My life keeps getting harder
This will be the hardest 12 months of my life
Please pray for me
I feel so weak
Please be there for me
I'm sorry
Worst choice of my life
Never in a million years did I think I'd be in this situation
I'm a failure
I'm a loser
HELP
I'm just another statistics
What makes me different from everyone else in a harsher situation?
Pray for me

A Loser's Mentality

I'm the loser your the winner
A fallen angel just a sinner
You take the W, Give me the L
Once was on top, but then I fell
Burried at the bottom
With my dreams shotten
All hope rotten
Gone and forgotten
Misery bound
A silent sound
Deafened by the devil
And his proclamations
Weakened by all these
Harmless sensations
Drownin in a bottle
My dreams cast away
Where's the sunshine
Where's the better days
Anxiety flows
In and out my veins
Depression intrudes
While stress remains
Suffered a winners fatality
Now livin with a
Loser's mentality
Where did I go wrong
God hear my song
Hear my prayer
Let me know your there